Manna - a divine aid

There comes a point in everyone's life where one hits the rock bottom . Each passing second seems like a punishment , toss of mental health at its best , losing your heart out still assembling life.

It’s not mere experience that one goes through at this time. It’s the internal turmoil, introspection, self cleansing and standing up again all goes hand in hand.

In such gloomy doom days and nights your inner self often die several times . The blame game , the repent , the guilt ,the helplessness everything contribute at its best. 

After being there what I felt is that in life you need to be bestowed with someone who can hold on to you even when you have given up.

Quite a time worldly affairs and people affects us intensely. As they say watch out your moves and always choose your company.

Tough times tests you abruptly , exclusively, untimely but what should change our focus is what we soak in our mind and whom we allow to pour in thoughts in our mind.

I term such people as "Manna - a divine aid" they are purposely implanted in your life to comfort your soul from the chaos walking around you.

So if you have such people just hang in there with them , hug them tightly , never ever let them go because when life gets rough you need a smoothing love .

Just roll up your sleeves , call your dear one , be "Manna" in their life and humm these few lines to them 

" यूँ तो अकेला भी अक्सर

गिर के संभल सकता हूँ मैं

तुम जो पकड़ लो हाथ मेरा

दुनिया बदल सकता हूँ मैं "

See the magic that spells post this 😉

You Owe it !

One of the camouflage used oftentimes for our own insecurities is "Know your Worth".

It is such an easy phrase to throw around and just pass on but do we actually know what it means ? To be honest we don't have clue what our worth is.

There is always a chalk and cheese difference between saying you know your worth and in believing that you are worthy.

LinkedIn profiles these days showcase that each and everyone of us is excelling , annexing accolades without literally knowing their real worth which is quite strange to accept. 

A question that crosses my mind is - Am I the only one left out in this herd race or am i still unaware of my worth ?

Propelling deep in my thoughts an answer slipped-in stating a genuine and simple fix for this is to owe it.

One need to stop giving a shit about what outside world think you deserve. You need to get to the point where you are so damn confident in who you are. You need to cosset yourself in your self-love so much that other's opinions don't even shake you.

You owe it to Yourself to believe that you deserve better, so don't settle down until it matches your standards and expectations.

Trust me you aren't asking too much for yourself , probably you're asking wrong set of people or you are at wrong place.

So just put your guns down , relax and cheer for Yourself, be your own Cheerleader 🤗

As someone said profoundly , 

" खुदसे प्यार करने का मज़ा ही कुछ और होता है , इसलिए खुदसे तू प्यार कर और बेमिसाल कर 😉 "

थोड़ा है थोड़े की जरूरत है !

जिंदगी में अक्सर थोड़ा कम ही सही होता है ,

थोड़ा सा सुकून , 

थोड़ा सा जुनून , 

थोड़ा सा अफसोस,

थोड़े जज़्बात,

थोड़ा ख्याल,

थोड़ा प्यार,

थोड़ी तकरार,

थोड़ा गुस्सा,

थोड़ा रूठना मनाना,

थोड़ी सी चिंता,

थोड़ी सी शोहरत,

थोड़ी सी कामयाबी,

थोड़ी सी नाकामी,

क्योंकि जिंदगी कभी रुकती नहीं, झुकती नहीं बस हमारे थोड़े को अपने ढंग से पूरा कर देती है .

मसले भी आयेंगे , आफतें भी आयेंगे, रंज भी होगा, गम भी होगा यहां तक कि खुदके होने ना होने का द्वंद भी होगा .

तब एक लंबी गहरी सांस लीजिएगा और खुद से ये कहिये , 

" थोड़ा है , थोड़े की जरूरत है , जिंदगी फिर भी यहां खूबसूरत है !" 😊

"A letter written but never sent"

Dear Man,

Hope this letter of mine finds you in pink of your health where ever you are.

Penning down my emotional turmoil that I undergo every now and then these days.

Before you accept me you need to understand and know that i am damaged, I have scars that scares me not to live peacefully.

I have lived with excruciating pain for a really long time . 

There are nights when I am curled up on floor and won't talk to anyone. 

There are days when I am smiling and crying in washroom to hide my pain.

I get triggered easily . 

I have struggled with people , things and what not.

I'll shut you out at times. 

I have trust issues because everyone has always left ,cheated or chosen someone else over me .

I will need reassurance, I will need YOU.

I will need you to keep choosing me every time when I fall and get weak.

I'll need you to care when ever I text you saying I am getting bad again .

I am a weird, disturbed and a lot piece of mess and I own this .

So before you walk into my life thinking that I'll always be chirpy , I'll always be positive , I'll always be smiling you should know the reality before you get involved with me at this stage.

Don't enter my life and don't let me enter yours if we can't handle it.

Lastly, don't touch my heart if you just only want all the good things for you because I come with some blemish and some frailty .

Think about your decision calmly as I am not the way you want me , am not what you want me to be , I am scared to be close to you , I am scared to hurt you , I am scared to turn you vulnerable and cynical like me. 

I am just ScArEd and BrOkEn 💔

Yours Truly,

A resolute Woman.